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LIFE, AS IT IS.

The hiatus has been a long one but I’m glad to be back, with the greater hope that I’d be able to keep up with the thoughts in my head, and translate them into posts right here.

THE LEAP OF FAITH
The past two months have been rough on me, mentally. It was a mashup of exhaustion and exhilaration, both at once, and you can only imagine how draining that would have possibly been.

Plans to go abroad are in the works, and with the year coming to an end too quickly, it has almost if not already forced me to fast forward a lot of my other plans on hand. There’s that fear of making it, or not making it, and the dealing with it afterwards, whichever the outcome may be.

I think what really affects me here, is the idea that I don’t seem to have much time left to do a lot of things I initially set out for myself. Or more possibly, having to postpone my next dive trip. Haha. Yes, I hate when that happens. But on a serious note, it does feel like a severe case of “too much to do, too little time”. This is nonetheless a step closer to my dream, to say the least. So it’s alright, perhaps.

The collating of my portfolio has also been a rather arduous one, if I may add. I have had to painstakingly sieve and sample what felt like a million portfolio hosting sites only to return to good ol’ WordPress and Behance. And then there’s the LinkedIn profile that needed dusting, and lots of refining. Did I mention that I suck at beefing up a personal profile? Lol. I could so do someone else’s but mine.

I’ll be visiting that place abroad in November, for the first time. It’s going to be my chance to fall in love with that new ground, that unfamiliar space, with absolutely no strings attached. It was a fairly spontaneous decision to book that flight out, but I’m glad I did it. It’s going to be a really good holiday. I can feel it already.

I’ve had big dreams before, but none thus far that have required such attention to the life changing details, up until now. “If your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough,” so I read somewhere.

At this rate, yup! It’s safe to say that my dream is officially big enough.

THE BOOK JOB
I am a storyteller, a blogger, and a writer. What I’m definitely not, is a copywriter.

The difference, you ask? I don’t like writing to sell. I enjoy writing in hopes of promoting something that I believe in.

Part of the worry that I had about going abroad was simply, not knowing what I should sell myself as, and what sort of jobs I would/could/should land. Should I be a writer, or a photo stylist? How about an editor? Oh, what about a graphic designer? It always felt like I was half-baked in every way despite the endorsements I’ve received. It felt like I was a jack-of-all-trades, and a master of none. It was tougher than I had thought it to be. It became a personal battle – a constant one that made me question if I was ever good enough to make the career cut out there.

It was during this time that someone reminded me of the other side to it. Much like how David saw Goliath, the giant – too big to miss, I had ample skills under my belt to at least land one job out of all the possible writing/styling/designing vacancies out there. I found myself breathing a little easier after that, really.

About three weeks ago, I was briefly in touch with a publishing house – more specifically, a publishing division of the renowned Penguin Books. We spoke about my manuscript (which still is a work in progress and a far cry from completion), about its illustrations, colours, paginations, cover finishing of choice, and we even got to the part about marketing and royalties!

The whole conversation was amazing, and I loved how alive the idea was that I would be able to publish a book of my own, eventually. It did come with a relatively huge (but affordable) price tag, but I’m just really glad that I had the opportunity to be in touch with the young lady on the other line, and to discuss all the possibilities that we could put together, especially under such a prestigious publishing label that I grew up with reading its titles.

It’s not everyday that I get these kicks that make me feel like I can take on the world, with words. And it’s also things like this that reminds me that my writing carries weight, if I allow it to. It pushes me out of a zone of disbelief that I have inevitably created for myself along the way, and helps me realize that there are a lot of things that could be well within my reach, if I would only stretch a little further and grasp for a little more than what I think I’m comfortable with.

It’s one of those life-changing experiences, you know? The kind that comes right when you need it, and right where you need it.

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TWO-OH-ONE-FOUR

New Year

Hello!

I apologise for being so bad at keeping up with my writing, that every time something comes up – a vacation, a personal struggle, a workload explosion – my posts take a backseat. I need to try harder at keeping at it, and I will.

2014 is now. It’s crazy how time flies. Many will start off with resolutions and new lists of things to accomplish, while some will find that one thing that drives them crazy and allow it to take them further.

This year, I decided that I will have nothing to do with lists and resolutions but everything to do with remembering each day in a question, and for the next four years on. I picked out a Q&A journal over Christmas in Singapore and have started taking on the questions a day at a time. 365 questions, 5 years, 1825 answers. To be frank, I am curious as to how and where I’d be when the five years are up. I’d like to know if I’ve grown at all, if I’ve matured and how have things and people around me changed, evolved, weathered, with time. I’d like to know if I succeed at being the person I want to be, and if I have wholly and completely distant myself from my past. I’d like to know if I’m attached, or if I’m single and living in a luxe little condo. Or if I’ve been to the same restaurant the past three years, or if my victory dance has ever changed. Haha. I’m…curious, you know.

If you’re just as curious as I am, you can pick up your own Q&A a day like the one I have here and start journaling each day and then reading it back four years after when you’re done. It’ll be a like a time capsule, of written words. And then I also decided that I would like to live my life in books this year, hence my Nook ink-reader. And my yearly companion, the Moleskin planner. I am set to take on 2014, I suppose. I do hope you lovelies are too. If there’s a fitness regime you’re putting yourself through, or a family plan you’re executing, or just a part of your life you’re making a change to…keep going at it! It’s going to be a good year.(:

Happy new year all! I will leave you the questions for this week, if you’d like a taste of being part of this Q&A journey. So grab a notebook and start writing away.

Lots of love for the New Year’s,
Jolene

Q&A A Day
Jan 1 What is your mission?
Jan 2 Can people change?
Jan 3 What are you reading right now?
Jan 4 The best part of today?
Jan 5 What was the last restaurant you went to?
Jan 6 Today was tough because…
Jan 7 You are lucky; how so or not so?
Jan 8 What song is stuck in your head?
Jan 9 Was today typical? Why or why not?
Jan10 Write down something that inspired you for today/
Jan 11 Today you lost…

{Read, write and schedule by Jolene Tan}

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A SHUTTERBUG, I AM NOT

I have to admit to being incredibly envious of those people who can take really, really simple yet awesome pictures. Unlike me, I am a total handicap at that. Not unless Instagram counts!

And so, the research starts tonight. I can’t seem to grasp the whole ISO/Aperture/Shutter speed correlation between them all, whether at once, or on separate occasions. I. just. don’t. get. it. And how one can make the necessary adjustments all so quickly on the spot, my confusion, awe and amazement quadruples with that. I take my hats off to you!

So as would any other subject, I Googled and found this site that was quite comprehensive. The pictures and all sure gave me a better understanding in lay terms. But that said, I am still barely there with just trying to remember the larger numbers mean the opposite thing or something along those lines. See what I mean?

But I am determined to better (not perfect) my point-and-shoot skills. Out with the Auto Mode, and in with the well, Aperture Priority mode to say the least?(:

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hello world!

It’s been close to two years now that I’ve been struggling with the idea of having a cafe of my own. I’m still struggling, if you’re wondering, and am nowhere near fulfilling that wishful/hopeful dream, unfortunately. But I’m sure I’ll get there, someday. And when I do, it’ll be great I know!((:

To start, I thought a blog to document my travels, explorations, journeys and even, my foodie excursions would be good- to hone my writing, designing, and of cos, my iPhone-Instagramming or point-and-shoot skills.(: I’m no entrepreneur/designer/photographer myself, but I need a place to start. I need a platform to be inspired by to put together, and to inspire. This should be it, until I get my registered domain, soon.): I must say I was rather disappointed when the domain was already registered. But anyway, I went ahead to back order it here and am in the waiting list now! HOORAY!(: *fingers crossed*

I really hope I get it, even if that meant a couple years of waiting.(: So here’s my first entry…and more to come!

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